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Name: Jonathan
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: San Jose
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Interests: wushu, WMMT, SF
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Sunday, June 29, 2008

okay xanga is fucking gay

i logg on to keep my account and i find out my old theme got erased fucking gay
now i have to find another one fuck

fuck you xanga


Thursday, August 02, 2007

ewww...

i got a new haircut. Actually "new" this time..my hair is much shorter. I look like a kid. I can spike it and do the dbz hair thing i had fresh/sophmore year Lol.
i kept the back tho. Im waiting for another 3 weeks so i can do something cool with it. You'll see. Im gonna highlight my hair also. Still debating on what i should do.
i look like a kid now..ugh...oh well..it'll grow out. Im not used to not having bangs ahahaa. x] my face feels so cool now since i have nothing in my eyes. i kinda dont like it tho. IT sooo plain now =[..hopefully after senior pictures my hair will be cool when i color it =D. Gosh i had to butcher my hair just for freaking senior pictures rawr >_>. idk how im going ot do my hair either fuckk...

reminder:

Senior portraits Friday.


Wednesday, August 01, 2007

Everything for me, Nothing for you...

so like i came across this bullitin on myspace. Kinda just hit me in the head and heart really hard. Just got me thinking and realizing things that are happening right now. i think ive changed alot. I used to be almost everything that the bullitin says about the guys and how they treat thier gf/etc. But after my last ex, its been so different. Ive become cold, heartless, & and im realizing it now. im nothing like what the bullitin says, im the other part of the 10% of guys who just let girls down. i dont deserve anyone anymore, ive lost that touch with me, i cant treat girls like how i used to anymore...idk why. forgive me for changing, but i just realized how much of a jackass ive been now.

you do everything for me, and yet i do nothing for you...
you'll know how im feeling after reading this:

Why can't girls
do the same for guys?

Honestly,
the reason
they are a dying
breed is
that women are
fighting to be
treated equally.

If you want to
be treated equally,
then treat us
equally.

If we call
you beautiful,
call us handsome.

Also,
women throw
around the word
"love" a lot.

Ladies,
the reason
a man hardly
says they love
you is that
men say it
only when they
actually mean it,
if they are
respectful men.

Women say
"I love you" every
two seconds
and that desensitizes
them to where
they feel that
they should hear
that from their
boyfriend every
telephone conversation.

The only woman
I do that for,
is my mother.



To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that took time to do what she wanted to do.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours
just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful
no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything
so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy
even if you are not with her.


Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

 

yeah...so i dont think i deserve her, after reading all this. she cares more about me than i care about her. i know she wouldnt agree with me on that. but from my view i think its true...

im pathetic
im a jerk
im a bad  boy friend
i hurt you
and you know i do, everytime you're down. everytime you cry byurself.
i dont seem to care cause i try to ignore things like that. and i know it hurts you that i do.
i treat you so badly.

& yet you're still here.

you do everything for me, and i do nothing for you.

sometimes i wonder, if this is what you want to deal with. because
honestly...i wouldnt even deal with myself.


Tuesday, June 12, 2007

you make me feel high on life.
when i'm with you, i can fly.

this have been good today =] so like, im finnally with her! =D but...it kinda doesn't feel like it still. Maybe i should give it more time. Im just happy to know that she commited finally. But sometimes i get the feeling i kinda forced her to do it..and stuff..hmm..maybe im just overreacting.

today was really boring also, all i did in my classes were sit and review for finals, its soo boring I cant wait to get highschool over and done with, just 1 more year too go. The year passed by so quickly tho, i just remember when it was september and school just started.
i have history and english tommorow...eh..can't wait..><  today at lunch really pissed me off...henry was supposed to get me food since matt called me in 4th period french class, i didnt know till lunch started, so then i asked henry to get me food. I wait till lunch was over, and i still wait and 20 mintues after lunch ends, he texts me and tells me hes gonna eat the food since its gonna be too cold for me to eat, when ive been sitting here for the past hour or so waiting for me food and he thinks i would care if my food was cold, so then he just goes on ahead and eats it while im waste my lunch eating nothing waiting for him. yeah that really pissed me off today.

other than that...everything was just perfect =] she makes me soo happy.
after school i got to chill with christina Tran from Mission San jose highschool in fremont, with tommy, trinity, and dan. Hung out at burrito express and yeah ahaha i guess that made up for being really hungry and pissed cause of henry xD

hmm..so yeah that was my day..
i cant wait till finals tommorow..yeee!? ><

ohh and christina Dangs haircut appointment tommorow  xD i gotta go see that since i promised her help her style her hair


An Jing
Silence.

she talked to me today. i didnt know what to say. i actually had nothing to say. Probably because once i saw her and how she just suddenly came up to me with her arms around me, it was as if nothing happend..and nothing went wrong. I was speechless, probably because I was so happy to see her face 2 face again after 4 days of not seeing her. I couldn't do anything but remain Silent. She told me everything. I felt so bad, so selfish that I can think that way.



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