so like i came across this bullitin on myspace. Kinda just hit me in the head and heart really hard. Just got me thinking and realizing things that are happening right now. i think ive changed alot. I used to be almost everything that the bullitin says about the guys and how they treat thier gf/etc. But after my last ex, its been so different. Ive become cold, heartless, & and im realizing it now. im nothing like what the bullitin says, im the other part of the 10% of guys who just let girls down. i dont deserve anyone anymore, ive lost that touch with me, i cant treat girls like how i used to anymore...idk why. forgive me for changing, but i just realized how much of a jackass ive been now.

you do everything for me, and yet i do nothing for you...
you'll know how im feeling after reading this:

Why can't girls
do the same for guys?

Honestly,
the reason
they are a dying
breed is
that women are
fighting to be
treated equally.

If you want to
be treated equally,
then treat us
equally.

If we call
you beautiful,
call us handsome.

Also,
women throw
around the word
"love" a lot.

Ladies,
the reason
a man hardly
says they love
you is that
men say it
only when they
actually mean it,
if they are
respectful men.

Women say
"I love you" every
two seconds
and that desensitizes
them to where
they feel that
they should hear
that from their
boyfriend every
telephone conversation.

The only woman
I do that for,
is my mother.



To every guy that's said, "Sex CAN wait"
To every guy that's said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that took time to do what she wanted to do.
To every guy that she cried in front of.
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours
just to see her for ten minutes.
To every guy that would give his seat up.
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful
no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared
through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything
so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her
when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy
even if you are not with her.


Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...

yeah...so i dont think i deserve her, after reading all this. she cares more about me than i care about her. i know she wouldnt agree with me on that. but from my view i think its true...

im pathetic
im a jerk
im a bad  boy friend
i hurt you
and you know i do, everytime you're down. everytime you cry byurself.
i dont seem to care cause i try to ignore things like that. and i know it hurts you that i do.
i treat you so badly.
& yet you're still here.

you do everything for me, and i do nothing for you.

sometimes i wonder, if this is what you want to deal with. because
honestly...i wouldnt even deal with myself.